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Usmah, Im sorry if i've ignored or neglect you, really. I know you've help me alot. But, it seems like I dont care kan? Im sorry. I treasure you alot. Just so you know, I really hope we were like last time. I've always wished to hug you but no, it never happen. Do you need me to hate Nadd again in order for us to be like last time? I dont think I can do that tho, cause Nadd, somehow, she understands me well, really well. Im not saying you dont, but, there's something about you that Im not comfortable with & that's what made me hard to share with you everything that is happening to my life. I know, I've been giving you alot and alot of excuses each time you asked me out, but.. Ahh, if only I could prove to you, my excuses were true, nevermind. Im glad you are happy with Amalina and all, unlike when you are out with me & the rest. I feel like Im losing you, which is so obvious laa. But, I dont know, how to get us back like dulu-dulu? You see, I dont have freedom like you do, always able to go out as and when you like, being pampered at home, no chores to do, no one to take care of and so on. I've got alot of responsibilities here, at home & you know, my brother is so strict when it comes to going out. ): I wish you could understand. Im being ignorant, I know. I hope you know this, i really wish my life was like yours & that I love you alot. I'll never forget you even if we are not close like now. I accept you for who you are, really. I need you too, not only Nadd. I admit I've said that I wont get back to Nadd like last time, but I prove you wrong. If you remembered what you said in one of your msges, you said, the old can nvr replace the new. It really is true. Ugh, Idk how to explain things to you. Im crying, ):):